THOUGHTS FROM A BOX CHILD

 Years from now maybe I will have compiled my thoughts and history into something more substantial and understandable, but until then I have my meager ramblings.

One of the hardest tasks one could do in life... is dismantling "the box". I'm not sure if other people have a name for it, im sure there's some technically mumbo jumbo out there, but this is what a significant other and I have come to call it. "The box" is a state of mind that, usually unbeknownst to you, is imposed on you by society and those who control society. Both consciously and subconsciously you are told what to expect, what to want, how to react to situations, how to simply think. Brainwashing from birth basically, many people do not realize its presence and retain the prototypes they've been given.

"The box" has been the source of many issues and much heartache for me over the past few years. I cannot very well say I wish it wasn't so, 'cause afterall I would never have gotten to where I am now without my experiences. But at times  I do feel bad that myself and others were hurt on account of stubborn notions and behaviors embeded in me. These days I am actively trying to dismantle my box, something that will take time and every day requires patience and coping, but in the end I know will pay off. You think you're an independent thinker, until you fully realize what independent thinking is.

At this time in my life, progress is my main interest, both internally and externally. I've been caught up in so much BS, I remember how much higher consciousness and the experience of life means to me. I've come to realize this is a journey that, when it comes down to it, I must take alone, and if I must depend on anyone it should be myself. Regardless of attachment and my predisposition to care for others, I am responsible for myself and my own effect on the world and noone elses. I mean all of this in the most positive light btw.

I feel like there is much more to all this than I am able to explain, but this has been some of it. I am looking forward to a more enlightened future and better times. And if you actually read this kudos to you and thank you for being a part of my life.

(repost from Facebook notes)